i'm courtney.
park city, ut/washington, dc



"there's a point where you make that decision to do it and there's no going back. after that it's just total focus, tunnel vision. boom. you light the wick and you go."

12/15/2012; I'll always love you Aleks, rest in peace.

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"Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy."

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"For a second, I feel a sense of overwhelming grief: for how things change, for the fact that we can never go back."
Lauren Oliver, Requiem 

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"The dead do walk and haunt and crawl into your bed at night. Ghosts sneak into your head when you’re not looking."
Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls

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"Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive."

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"We’re so caught up in our everyday lives that events of the past, like ancient stars that have burned out, are no longer in orbit around our minds. There are just too many things we have to think about every day, too many new things we have to learn. New styles, new information, new technology, new terminology…But still, no matter how much time passes, no matter what takes place in the interim, there are some things we can never assign to oblivion, memories we can never rub away. They remain with us forever, like a touchstone."
Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via larmoyante)

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"I was certain that when he died a part of me had died with him. I couldn’t feel anymore, not the way I had when he was here."
Rise, Anna Carey

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"I still spoke to him, in the quiet of the suite, still told him I wished to go back to everything before. There were times I had to remind myself that he was gone…that what had happened could never be reversed."
Rise, Anna Carey

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"I wonder if this is how people always get close: They heal each other’s wounds; they repair broken skin."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

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"I realized how often people say one thing and mean another. How often they want what they can’t have. I saw all these reasons for everything…I couldn’t avoid knowing things people hid."
Veronica Rossi, Under the Never Sky

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"You think you’re the only one who knows about loss, or being angry. You think you’re the only one who knows about running."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

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"We all need mantras, I guess — stories we tell ourselves to keep going."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

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"Morning is my favorite time of day. It’s like everything’s starting out fresh and new. I begin to get sad around noontime, and I hate it when the sun goes down. I live with those same feelings day after day."
Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood (via durianquotes)

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"How come you don’t want me now? Why don’t you want to wait this out? How come you always lead me on, never take my call, hear me out? Why don’t you wanna win me now? Tell me why you couldn’t try and keep me here."
Tegan and Sara, How Come You Don’t Want Me

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"I didn’t want my picture taken because I was going to cry. I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I’d cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full."
Sylvia Plath (via larmoyante)

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"For all sad words of tongue and pen, The saddest are these, ‘It might have been’."
John Greenleaf Whittier (via ryandonato)

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